Wednesday, December 30, 2009

An Ending... A broken heart... A beginning... A new heart

On a lighter note, I'm returning the Little Rock very soon. Maybe as soon as tomorrow. But New Years Day at the absolute latest. I'm so ready to settle down in an apartment in Searcy, in May. I need to! With the turn of events recently, I wouldn't be surprised if I end up in Colorado a lot sooner than I might have thought! That is an exciting thought, the thought that for now, I really can make my own decisions without thinking about any other person that will have to get a job and be happy somewhere. Shoot, I might re-think Colorado for now and head to St. Louis... it has always been my first love. haha! I have a lot to ponder and a new year which means a new beginning just around the corner. I think that God is preparing me for something. Just waiting to see what that something is! I can't wait, despite the fact that my heart lie in pieces, He has ALL the pieces and knows how to put them right back together. Thank you, Jesus

-In Christ,

Tuesday, December 29, 2009

I wish I had your strength.

I know that this is partly the major lack of sleep speaking, however, I wish I was a part of your life. Its funny that I want this, I am honestly not even sure why. You have always intrigued me, always drawn me in. Now, in the times that you are usually there, even if for only those three times a year, you are not there. Its interesting, but now you're really happy and you don't want to mess that up, I can certainly understand that. Hmmm. oh to be so happy. Don't get me wrong, I am happy. But as happy as you?


A question I know the answer to.

God, take my life...

Its yours.

-Marisa Lynn