Saturday, February 9, 2013

Here I am... again.

*Disclaimer: If you're here, please read. I just want to know you've got my back*

I have recently discovered, and by recently I mean today, that I have been in the same rut for almost two years. Breaker breaker, did you catch that? TWO YEARS! Looking back at old posts I have realized that one thing has been missing from all of these "Its time to make a change" posts. What has been missing you ask? 


Somewhere along this journey that is my life, I fell off the path. Or perhaps I followed the path exactly where I was meant to and I just haven't realized that yet. I will admit that I did NOT expect to be where I am today, pretty much in every sense of the phrase. I would have never thought that I would choose to move back to my hometown. To top it off, I would not have thought that I would work at the very school I graduated from. Then comes the zinger... I live in the very house I grew up in. 

Now don't get me wrong, all of these things have been a HUGE blessing in their own way, just not what I pictured. 

I have to stop looking over my shoulder longing for the past. I have to stop gazing into the future eagerly waiting for tomorrow to arrive, for the next big thing to role on through. There are so many ways for me to impact people I love here, right now. There are so many ways that God has been begging me to let him work through me and I have been turning a deaf ear thinking, "This is not what I imagined, why?"

I am so blessed to have so SO many people who believe in me without thinking twice about it. Just thinking about it makes me want to stop and say, Thank You. 

Which brings me to this quote:

“Those who love you are not fooled by mistakes you have made or dark images you hold about yourself. They remember your beauty when you feel ugly; your wholeness when you are broken; your innocence when you feel guilty; and your purpose when you are confused.” 
― Alan Cohen

Which beings me back to this...


I am going to be trying a Facebook Fast to try to help me find my action and passion. We are so connected through social networking that we forget to talk to those we care about on the phone or see them. I think that is part of my problem. I'm too connected. In this world we live in, it is hard to completely unplug. So, for now I'm just "unplugging" Facebook. I will be deleting the app from my phone and Ipad and the bookmark on my computer. If you want to TALK to me, send me a text or call me! *gasp* 

I pray that this is a step to helping me find my PASSION again and turn that into ACTION. Will you pray with me?

Starting Monday Morning I'll step away from FB for a while. I don't know how long I'll be away, but you have my number. You guys are truly a gift.

-Marisa Lynn