Friday, January 7, 2011

Oh My Whoa... Children Everywhere: A Middle School Teacher's Adventure

If the school sends out children with a desire for knowledge and some idea of how to acquire and use it, it will have done its work
--Richard Livingstone 

This past week I started my first week of student teaching

I turned 24 (ahhh!)

 I witnessed the Razorbacks loose to a team they should have beat,
 I recommitted my life

and I taught my first official class all on my own, no teacher, just me against the world.

That sure is a lot for one person to absorb in just one week, wouldn't you agree?

 I have heard

 "Excuse  me, Miss... uh... Teacher lady..." so many times this week, that I am seriously considering changing my first name to Miss, my middle name to Teacher and my last name to Lady. That way, there won't be any confusion! ;o)

It has truly been nothing but a blessing to be in the classroom this week, I'm looking forward to what the rest of the semester could possible have in store, I just can't imagine all of the great things the future coming my way!

Tomorrow I get scootin on my resume
 which I MUST finish this weekend.

 Soon this will all be over and I will wonder where all the time went, although I must admit, I can't wait to have my own classroom, just can NOT wait! It's all just around the corner!!

-in Christ,
 ~Marisa Lynn

Sunday, January 2, 2011

~It's a New Year, right?~

"We young people are constantly under the pressure of planning, of choosing the right college and finishing college in exactly 4 years. Of choosing the right spouse and just in the right amount of time. Of choosing the right career and finding the perfect big city in which to live. We're asked to be certain in a world full of uncertainty. To feel secure when only one wrong step breeds insecurity and to simply answer the questions in front of us instead of questioning the answers."
--Charissa Collins
Part of me just wants to leave my post with that statement. It is everything that I am feeling at this very moment. Some days, I don't know how to even face all of these pressures, but then I remember this...

"But your love, your love the only thing that matters is, your love. Your love, it's all I have to give. Your love is enough to light up the darkness, it's your love, your love all I ever needed is your love."
--Brandon Heath 
I plan to make no resolutions this year, at least not in the sense that resolutions are typically made. I'm praying for the strength to keep this in mind...

"If only you could see me yesterday, who I used to be before the change, you'd see a broken heart, you'd see the battle scars. Funny how words can't explain, how good it feels to finally break the chains. I'm not what I have done, I'm what I've overcome"
 This year I'm not hoping for the strength to keep my resolutions, no this year I'm praying for the strength and the bravery to remember that I am NOT what I have done, I AM what I've overcome! And the greatest thing about that realization is that, I didn't overcome ANYTHING, not on my own accord anyway! I AM overcome everything! It's such a great thing to realize! This year I pray that it is not something that gets pushed in a corner, convinced that I can handle everything on my own. Who am I to think that I can handle this life on my own. God has blessed me immensely and how do I thank him? I most often do not. It's time for this to change, 2011 is the year in which I really care enough to change. Cause thats the problem, isn't it? I haven't cared enough. 

"They say it sounds insane, we say that we've been changed by the power of crazy love. This world looks at us like we're ridiculous Baby it's all because of crazy love."
--Hawk Nelson

This band  got this song idea from a book by Francis Chan called Crazy Love: Overwhelmed by a relentless God. My prayer is that I can become so wrapped up in God's love that I can overwhelm him with my love and devotion for him. Sure, in this life I will never be perfect but the promise of perfection is enough to make this life worth living. Why I've been waiting 24 years to figure this out is beyond me. But, I'm done waiting. 

If you're reading this I'm hoping that you can help me. Prayer, asking how I am, Caring, Loving, simply being there... all ways that will be encouraging and uplifting. 

I'm tired of living a life in which I feel guilty for not reading my bible every day or praying often enough. I do not want to live a life like that any longer. Who wants a relationship like that? Certainly not God and certainly not I. I want to DESIRE to talk with my God, my SAVIOR, my REDEEMER, my LIGHT, my LIFE, my LOVE, my FATHER, my best friend. Only he knows the desires of my heart, only he can fix what I have broken. 

So, 2011 let's do this. I have set out the past 24 years with my plans, never truly considering what God may have in store for me. In May, I will graduate *finally* with my bachelor's degree in Middle-Level Education with an emphasis in Social Studies and Language Arts. I am being blessed with an opportunity at Pangburn Middle School for my Student Teaching semester which starts in just one day! I'm excited to start this adventure. It's already begun, this is exciting!!

"Redeem the years I've thrown away I'm ready to make good on what I've wasted. I'm asking you to shape my heart, I want to be Your work of art. Cause when You change me and make me more like You, It's Beautiful, you can turn mistakes to miracles. The way that you still love me after all, it's BEAUTIFUL! So, help me God forbid I never take for granted this endless gift you give." 
 Thanks for reading till the end, if you made it. ;)

-Marisa Lynn