Monday, February 6, 2012

A Teacher's Life for Me

There are so many wonderful things going on in my life these days. I am not sure that I know where to start!

I'm in my second semester of the Reading Program at Harding, which will allow me to get a job as a Reading Specialist if I so choose, when I graduate. I don't know yet if, "I so choose," but I do know that I am learning a lot. At the beginning of the semester I felt very, VERY overwhelmed but that feeling has subsided somewhat and I am monitoring and adjusting when it comes to just about everything.

It is about time to start looking for jobs and that is a very scary thought. I can NOT wait to have my own classroom but at the same time, I am so nervous about such a huge prospect. I second guess myself a lot wondering if I'm ready for this. Do I know even half of what I need to know in order to teach students that I get blessed with. I pray every day that I will be the kind of teacher that every kid wants to have. Not because I give the easy way out, but because I engage my students and allow them to choose in my classroom. 

As you know, I have been trying to regulate my eating habits which has caused some health related hurtles, so to speak. Each day I wake up and I have to convince myself that what I am doing is worth the battle, worth making the change, worth the pain. My biggest struggle with the life change of eating right and exercising regularly is getting up in the morning to work out. I am not much of a morning person, not to say that I am mean or anything like that, but I would much, MUCH rather stay in bed in the morning then get out.

*Confession, I'll find any way NOT to get out of the bed in the morning.*

That does not mean, by any stretch that I do not sometimes have very valid reasons to not get out of bed, but most mornings I'm fully capable though much less willing. So, if anyone is reading this... pray about that. I had a friend tell me that it is all about faith. I have to have faith that all this change is what God wants for me. That is something that I have got to remind myself every single stinking morning.

As of my last weigh in, which was last Wednesday (Feb. 1) I had lost six lbs. in the last two weeks. This week, I'm hoping for similar results as the two weeks prior. My brother was in town this weekend, so I had a little more pop than I am used to. I just need to get to the gym to counteract the pop/video game laziness/junkie foods.

So that, in short, is what is going on in my life these days. Its an exciting time! Thanks for your prayers! I appreciate them very much!
-in Christ,
 ~Marisa Lynn


Tiffany said...

I understand the feeling of doubting yourself and whether or not you are ready to be doing this. I still struggle some days wondering if I really have enough knowledge to be teaching, especially in the special education field! BUT book and school knowledge can only take you so far. Eventually you have to have the experiences to further that knowledge. :) You are a great teacher and will have a group of very blessed students one day in the future!

Rachel Ranchino said...

I love you :) I'd want my kids to have you as their teacher!

Marisa Lynn Farmer said...

Thanks for the encouragement, Tiff! I'm really excited to start teaching, August can't come fast enough but at the same time I'm so scared!

Rachel, your kids would be quite a challenge to teach... but I would tackle that challenge. Bring em on... in like 20 years. :p