Friday, March 30, 2012

Confessions of a Busy Grad Student

It's time to get real. I have fallen off the workout horse in a BIG* way. The month of March has been quite a stressful one and I haven't been able to recover from anything very quickly or very well. Therefore I have found myself resorting to leaning on "the bad foods" for comfort and it has certainly affected my weight loss. This month I have lost and gained the same two pounds over and over. I need to find a way to get out of the cycle that I am in. I stop and see it and it makes me want to STOP IT.

I have to learn to control myself when I am with other people. I do fine eating on my own AT HOME, but once I get out and with others I find that I fall victim to old habits with seemingly no way to get out, except to stop going out with other people. As a rather social person, I know that that is not the answer in any way. So, I keep wondering what to do.

I've really struggled with getting to church this year and I have mainly blamed it on the fact that Sunday is the only day that I really get to sleep in. I shouldn't be making excuses, but that does play a large role in why I don't get to church 9 times out of 10. I'm starting to see that it is making me more senical and less understanding at times. In ways, I've lost touch with who I am in Christ thinking that, once again, I can do everything on my own and I don't need to lean on anyone in order to get where God is taking me. That is always, ALWAYS the lie that I fall for. Any time I struggle.

 "I've got this, I don't need any help."

I'm writing this because I DO need help. I need prayers and I need encouragement. The Lord meant for us to surround ourselves with people whom we love and who love us. You guys are all such a great help to me. I need to get moving again, I need to start caring again. I've got goals, and I want those goals to be aligned with whatever God has planned for me in the next few days, months, years.

A friend told me today... "Some months are like that!! Shake off the dust, cut your losses, and start kicking butt and taking names again ;)"Thanks Daysha! And she couldn't be more right. I have strayed from my goals but that doesn't mean that I have to start kicking my own butt. People fall sometimes, gotta get back up. "We lose our way, we get back up again. It's never too late to get back up again."

I have to stop letting the little things get to me all the time. I've gotta find the "Marisa Rhythm" again. I know that it is out there, I've just gotta know where to start looking for it.

Thanks for all your support!

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